Well. I must say it has been a while since i wrote in here, I must be more reliable..Lols. Anywhoo...i think it might be a good idea, asss i probably need to just wrie about stuff and what im thinking even if noone reads it tbh.

 

Ok.. so im really god damn annoyed today. I mean it's not my fault..i love all my friends to pieces, and never wanna lose them. But at the moment i am finding them particularly immature. I mean..atm im not able to tell anyone, other than my mum, and i cant tell her everything, how i really feel. I mean, they joke and stuff..and i must seem really bitter, because im stood there, and i just dont find it funny. Actually i find most of it quite pathetic. And i can never explain anything to them, or speak to them in depth ad i know they just wont get it. and it sounds so bad to say it..but grrr. :/

Well..I Joined this as i struggle at home to write anything down...for fear that it may be read by other family members, as it has been in the past..So i guess im kind of making this my online diary..and ill try to write as often as i can=]

 Its Christmas soon...And in all honesty im dreading it. Its become far too over-commercialised..and there, at present doesnt seem to be any point in it. And everyones nice to each other at christmas..and i hate it because its all just so fake/

Im going to leave it at that for today..as its 5.30am..and i will literally get hung drawn and quartered if anyone realises that i am on the computer so late ;o